can I keep this up?

well it's not 100/100, but it's still an A.
currently *as far as I know* I have A's in both of my classes. I'm very proud of myself. I just hope I can keep this up. My English class is a lot of work, but I'm sure it is worth it. I think when you go to college right out of high school, sometimes you are in the classes because you have to be. I am in my classes today in order to learn how to do these things, not because I have to take them in order to get a degree. I'm really trying to learn.

So many many things have happened since I last posted. I have been going through... well let's call it a "thing" with a past friend. Well see I ... how can I explain this. ...
a long long long time ago.... i befriended a girl... it was around 6th grade... i have been friends with this girl ever since... we have been through A LOT!... She is more of the bully type, but this attitude was never directed at me.. so we've grown up and the attitude seemed to be calming down... this "friend" asked for a favor one day... and i obliged... which was a big mistake on my part... i was just trying to be nice, but I didn't think this through... all i can say is... NEVER LEND YOUR FRIENDS MONEY... it never turns out good... especially large sums... so to make a long story short... i have had to foot the bill for an expensive item for 2 years now... she has managed to pay 11% of the total cost. I myself have paid 57%. this item will be paid off in the next year... BY ME. so i decided to take back the item from said friend... and this is what she replied...

"Bonnie... We need to figure out how much I've paid towards "said item" so I know how much
I'm getting back. I paid something, something would be mine. I will look at my records. Some was not covered under warranty. We will have "said item" when we have an amount ... (now here is the real kicker)... or I guess you could be a real CUNT and not give me money back for something that's been in my possession for over 2 years. Two can play."

It then goes on to say basically how horrible of a friend I am. Now I know 99% of the people who may read this don't know what kind of person I am, but I can tell you that I'm not the kind of person that deserves this. I pride myself in being a good friend and to get this back for doing something nice for this person is devastating. I guess telling myself that she is obviously not a friend worth having and she's the one missing out only does so much. With this being said I appreciate the real friends I do have. And with this incident have rethought all of my friendships and her friendship is the only one that I never felt was 50/50. So I'm done being used. I will concentrate on all the wonderful friendships that I have now.

now if she would only call me back i could pick up "said item"

woo hoo!

I got an A! Of course it comes in the class that I didn't expect to get A's in. All the better.
YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!
I GOT AN A!
thanks for sharing in the joy.... and yes I put it on the refrigerator

off the subject, I went for my walk this morning and was approached by a neighbor. He is an older gentleman around 78. He asked if I would mind if he joined me. Awkward as I always am, I said of course. Not realizing that I was telling him I minded, when really I didn't. It was implied because we chatted the whole mile and 1/2. I'm always delighted when I meet genuine people. He and his wife will definitely get Christmas cookies :-)

I CAN DO THIS!

i know that positive thinking works, but if you are one that was sucked in by negative forces. Then you know how hard it is. I am going to try very hard to lose weight. I may not weigh 300 lbs, but the fact that I weighed 117 lbs in high school gives me reason to believe that I do not have to weigh 171 lbs. Plus I really want to be able to do the really twisty yoga poses.

Get ready to roll your eyes!

So I'm here... ready to join the blog world. I'm not writing to a certain audience. I guess I'm just hoping for motivation to improve myself. I would like to clear something up. I am not unhappy with myself, but there are always improvements to be made. I like to feel good about myself. who doesn't?... so if you're up to it, you can check in from time to time to see if you can relate to my personal struggles and/or triumphs.