FRUSTRATION

I am pretty bummed because I feel as though I am going to be fat forever. I started school last week and haven't been to the gym for almost a week. I haven't really had a chance. I guess I can't blame myself too much, but this morning I could have been at the gym, but I chose to stay home and catch up on some computer things.

I DON'T WANT TO BE FAT ANYMORE!!!!!

This is so much harder then quitting smoking. It shouldn't be this hard. I feel as though I am not doing soooo bad, but I look at how I was a month ago and there is such a difference. I hope I can keep on trucking and continue to lose weight instead of just maintaining.

GRRRRRRRR!

Progress

I think I am on the right track. I joined a gym and have lost 7 lbs!!!!
This is 7 pounds the right way. Diet and Exercise. No fad diets, no crazy cleanses. I am not saying that these things don't work, but they don't work for me. The motivation killer with diet and exercise is the wait. 1-2 lbs a week feels like nothing, but here I am a month later and 7 lbs lighter. I couldn't be happier really. Well, I guess I would be happier if I could lose 7 lbs by eating chocolate and french fries. However, I know this is not a option. I credit my friends and family with giving me the motivation I need to do what I am doing. Cross your fingers.

Relationships

I love Cory with all my heart and 'till death do us part' does not scare me.
However, there is a ridiculous number of failed marriages in this country.
My parents are a rarity. They have been married for over 35 years.
If you know it is the right person, then marriage shouldn't change anything.
Why then am I scared of a marriage certificate?

HIPPO BIRDIE TO EWE!

today is my 28th birthday.
it is exactly 2 months since my last post. I realize at this point I really am the only one reading this. You know what? That is perfectly all right will me. I woke up this morning, did 20 min of cardio yoga on Comcast on Demand, ran on the eliptical for 30 min, and did my Self strength moves for 20 min. I still feel sore from the same routine I did on Tuesday. I have high hopes though and I may even join a gym for some cardio and yoga classes. Hello! excited!

I am riding horses again because of my dear friend Alex. It is a passion and anyone who has owned a horse knows that the passion never goes away. (Only the leg muscles!)



Cory is going to buy me a wonderful Digital SLR camera for my birthday. With a little help from my photographer friend, Amber, I hope to be snapping awarding winning pictures soon. *wink**wink* I have a flickr page that is pretty sad at the moment, but will soon be brimming with interesting photos.



So at 170 lbs I hope by the next post I am a little smaller and a little stronger!

GOOOOO BONNIE!!!!

MOTIVATION

why is it so dang hard to lose weight?
why is it so dang hard to do what I want to do?
why is it so dang hard to write a blog at least once a month?

I look at this page probably once a week. I tell myself that tomorrow will be the day that I update it. Then I tell myself that tomorrow will be the day that I workout and eat properly. I often wonder if I will ever do everything that I want to do. I guess the first step would be to make a list of the random things that I would love to do on a daily basis. Maybe I will report back in 6 months to let you know if things have gone as planned.

1) start the day with a workout
2) end every morning with yoga
3) feel good about my food choices
4) take at least 5 pictures a day
5) have more sex

...... to be continued